Me..

Introduction-These are lines, may be thoughts, by a girl, who thinks she's lost evrything in life. But, her people want her to be happy. So she thinks, that if she wants to see them happy, then she has to pretend to happy, for the sake of their happiness. 

I've never felt so lonely,

so empty,

so sad,

so weak,

or so freak!

Never!

Never untill i realized,

that I actually aint me anymore!

But, today.

As i stand here in the sun,

and watch my shadow move from left to right,

with the sun.

I know,

than even my life, like wise, has to move on.

And I'm pretty sure,

it definately will,

They say i'm strong!

I know,

I want!

But, I aint that way born.

I may be strong,

But see,

I'm grown.

Grown up to be a big girl,

fit to fight with this cruel world.

Some times i feel like 

to stop and rest.

But,

I'd never do that untill they want.

My life has finished 

finished already for me.

But i still need to live,

to live for Thee.

I know I can,

I know I want to.

But NO!!

No more pains can i bear,

No more things can i share.

Ah!

All the creepy and shitty crap!

For the sake of their hap!

Involved in this quest.

I often fall into a question-

"WHY ME ??"

They say,

"You are strong"

After all,

He does not give trouble to those who weep!

Here I stand,

Uttering and muttering,

Pretending as good as i can.

Living for my happiness,

coz it actually lies 

IN them.